How do you intend to live in the light without  pursuing an affectionate relationship with your  darkness?

The ways you relate to others is currently calcified. The neural pathways are deep. You can acknowledge and talk for years about all the ways of thinking and being that you’re not proud of without ever actually having a relationship with your darkness. Let’s build that relationship and dig new pathways in your brain.

The outside world can only change if your inside world does.

This course is a refuge and a training ground for all of you who shut down, lash out, criticize, get defensive, self-righteous or just plain nasty in the face of conflict. It’s for you who compartmentalize emotions. It’s also for you who want to “change the world” but are still holding a grudge against your mom, dad, current or old lover.

None of you are alone. You’re in the fire with almost every living human being. The thing is - a fire can keep you warm or it can burn you. It’s up to you to learn to relate to the heat and tune in to the heart. 

The latin word for heart is cor, which is the root of the word courage. These four weeks are about courage and reckoning. Both are required to experience life and relationships differently than you have for all these years. We will do this work gently and without self-loathing, because self-loathing is abuse, and abusers live wildly limited lives. 

Who is this program for?

Anyone curious and willing to look at their patterns of relating to themselves and others.

At the end of this online experience - if you do the work - you will have access to:

• A perceptual rebirth: a new lens through which to welcome conflict and create from it
• Practices for training your attention and feeling discomfort, the two foundational steps in creating new neural pathways
• Recognize habits of conflict
• Practices for pausing and responding instead of reacting
• Choices in how you engage with conflict - a whole new world
• Medical studies that back up the importance of doing this work - your quality of life / physical health actually depends on it

What each week will look like/Support:

• Weekly live discourse and discussion with Angel (Tuesday evenings at 5:30 pm PST / 8:30 pm EST)
• Weekly live Interviews (also on Tues) with influential leaders: Michael Meade, Dr. Gabor Maté, Michael Hebb and a surprise guest
• Virtual reading assignments for expanding knowledge
• Weekly practical assignments for alchemizing knowledge into wisdom
• Optional writing prompts for diving deep into the practice of svadhyaya, or self-inquiry
• Guided meditation and pranayama (intentional breathing) practices via audio and/or video

“I don’t suppose I teach. Who is “I” anyway? These practices scrub my heart and clean out my ears so I can hear. So I can be a vessel. If there is an “I”, it’s just a vessel." - Angel Grant 

Angel Grant is Executive Director of deathoverdinner.org, Co-founder of drugsoverdinner.org, and part of the convivium.co collective.

She served as Co-founder of Yoga in Common and Yoga in the Forest in coastal South Carolina, and has been leading Yoga Alliance-certified teacher trainings focused on somatic and emotional intelligence since 2010.

Much of Angel’s time is spent facilitating workshops, retreats and sharing meditations focused on dying, healing addictions and waking up from early life conditioning. She works one-on-one with people to rewire neural pathways that limit their lives and relationships.

Recent meditations have been held at The NY Academy of Medicine, Peak Mind Foundation’s event with the Dalai Lama for his 80th birthday, The Conscious Dying Summit, Newport Academy and Summit Series.

In 2011 she founded a project called The Yoga Bus, and traveled the country with her two dogs living in a tiny RV she helped build from the ground up. The project’s focus was on trauma healing for populations that likely wouldn’t make it into a healing setting. She furthered this work in South Africa though TRIAD Trust, an organization centered on HIV education, in a region believed to have a 40% infection rate.